True to my word, here are the 2 things that I said I'd daily post:

First of all, for entertainment's sake, you must go visit this site. It has a fantastic collection of pictures that truly are hard to comprehend without seeing them for yourself. Enjoy!

http://dontjudgemyhair.com/

Next, I would like to say that I am thankful for being able to reach out and connect with a friend that is multiple states away. The stars aligned perfectly and allowed us to reconnect and talk about life. It was fabulous. So thanks to you Verizon Wireless!

That's all for now!

Resolution?

I'm trying.

I think I've said that phrase at least a billion times in the past month alone. I really have used it in pretty much every situation I can think of from the mundane to the unimaginable and today was no exception. "I'm trying," was tossed into a conversation with my mom, (like the loose change in your pocket that you unthinkingly just add to the tip because its there), and I didn't realize what I had said until it had passed through my lips. Then the realization hit.

The phrase, "I'm trying" has actually come to mean, "yeah, well, whatever. Back off."

When did I become so guarded? When did I learn to speak easy words that mask what I'm really saying instead of the words that sting, but resound with the truth that they contain? Why have I not paused to think about the subtle lies that fly out of my mouth? Honestly, I'm not sure. I do know that I am tired of this process.

So here are some words that sting a little:
I'm not doing fine. I don't have everything figured out the way I said I would, the way I convinced myself I would. I feel confused- like I'm in a haze all the time. But I'm not down and out, I refuse to be.

I'm going to try to be honest with myself and others. And I've decided that I'm going to take the initiative to look positively at my life. Each day I will try to post something funny or weird or whatever that I want to and also to post something that I am thankful for. Let's see how this goes.

Disjointed Thoughts on "Real Life"

It's the end of an era- I've finally graduated from college. It's a weird feeling. Weirder still is that I have no clue of which direction my life is heading in. My bets on substitute teaching for the next year. Not the most appealing option, but a necessary one.

I've also got to find a new apartment- any ideas? (It has to be dog friendly. Also, I'd be thrilled with a washer/dryer in unit. If you know of anything, let me know.)

My pet mouse died the night after commencement. He was super old and I knew this was coming but still, it made me sad. My grandma said he was there to see me through school and since I was done, so was he. The apartment is unnaturally quiet at night without him running on the wheel.

I got a pretty sweet new slr camera as a graduation gift from my family. I'm going to get hard core about digital photography over the summer. Then I'll combine these photos with my amazing technique on photoshop and you'll all be blown away by the results. At least I hope so.

Now I'm wondering if I have anything planned for dinner- will there even be time for dinner?- and the answer is no. Should've thought about this sooner. It's going to be a long night.

Like I said, it's going to be a long night. There's a concert today and tomorrow and it's going to be all consuming. Good I think, but all consuming.

What do I do with myself? I can't seem to be able to nail a job. It's fairly stressful. I'm trying not to think that I'm wasting my time sitting around job hunting or that if I do find a job, I'm wasting my talent since I went to college and trained for something that it doesn't look like I'm going to be able to do right now.

When did I become a grown up? And how did this sneak up on me? Why does it feel so weird sometimes and so natural at others?