Thursday, May 14, 2009

Disjointed Thoughts on "Real Life"

It's the end of an era- I've finally graduated from college. It's a weird feeling. Weirder still is that I have no clue of which direction my life is heading in. My bets on substitute teaching for the next year. Not the most appealing option, but a necessary one.

I've also got to find a new apartment- any ideas? (It has to be dog friendly. Also, I'd be thrilled with a washer/dryer in unit. If you know of anything, let me know.)

My pet mouse died the night after commencement. He was super old and I knew this was coming but still, it made me sad. My grandma said he was there to see me through school and since I was done, so was he. The apartment is unnaturally quiet at night without him running on the wheel.

I got a pretty sweet new slr camera as a graduation gift from my family. I'm going to get hard core about digital photography over the summer. Then I'll combine these photos with my amazing technique on photoshop and you'll all be blown away by the results. At least I hope so.

Now I'm wondering if I have anything planned for dinner- will there even be time for dinner?- and the answer is no. Should've thought about this sooner. It's going to be a long night.

Like I said, it's going to be a long night. There's a concert today and tomorrow and it's going to be all consuming. Good I think, but all consuming.

What do I do with myself? I can't seem to be able to nail a job. It's fairly stressful. I'm trying not to think that I'm wasting my time sitting around job hunting or that if I do find a job, I'm wasting my talent since I went to college and trained for something that it doesn't look like I'm going to be able to do right now.

When did I become a grown up? And how did this sneak up on me? Why does it feel so weird sometimes and so natural at others?

2 comments:

Liz T. said...

I have 3 friends who just graduated w/ education degrees, and none of them have jobs yet...I hope you get something. I miss you! Love ya!

Marjorie said...

don't worry joy - i'm nannying...
this economy isn't exactly friendly towards new grads. just remember that as cliched as it might sound, God is definitely in control and he holds you in His palm. He is always faithful. whatever you have planned pales in comparison to His plans.
now all that being said, it is overwhelming and scary and frustrating and boring and stressful etc. but you aren't alone!
you'll find something...

also, for the apt. search use rent.com
we did, and we found a place we love with washer/dryer in unit with an attached garage for a good price. also, we got 100$ from the, for using their site.

blessing!

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